Today is not the day for me to write glowing remarks about you, as I’m functioning on about 4 hours of sleep, thanks to your refusal to go to bed until 11 pm last night. I love sleep almost as much as I love you, so please, please sleep tonight. Thank you.
However, you have finally started sleeping in your crib. It’s been nearly a month since you gave up your swinging ways. And you did it in what I suspect will be true Elise fashion - overnight. One night, you happily swung your way to sleep. The next, you wanted nothing to do with the swing. You were done with it. No transition, no tears, no fighting us on sleeping in the crib. Just when I had given up hope on ever using that lovely crib, you slept in it.
So, if I tell you I’ve just about given up hope on you sleeping through the night, would you sleep through the night? You would? OK, I’ve honestly just about given up hope that you’ll ever sleep through the night.
You are consistently rolling whichever way you want now. You can spin yourself around on your belly. And you can sit unassisted for long periods of time. The only time you really topple over is when you get too excited about something, like one of the cats walking by you. You aren’t quite crawling yet, but you are close…you just have to figure out how to get your hands and knees underneath you at the same time. But I’m in no hurry to babyproof the house, so you can take your time and not do it in true Elise fashion. Thank you.
You were baptized this month. You looked absolutely beautiful in the same dress that Grandma Jo was baptized in. You were so good throughout the whole ceremony, probably because you were sleeping. You weren’t too happy when Deacon Jerry doused you in cold water, but no one’s blaming you. Not even God. I hope that your baptism is the start of a special relationship for you with God, whatever you’d like that relationship to be. Having faith in something bigger than you will get you through whatever life throws your way.
This month has been rather trying for me as a Mom, because you are going through a separation anxiety phase. From the time I get home in the evenings until I can get you to sleep, you must be held by me. Too bad if I have to use the bathroom, too bad if I want to cook dinner, too bad if I want to do anything other than hold you. You scream hysterically until you get yourself worked into a sweaty, red-faced frenzy.
There are days when my heart nearly bursts with joy, knowing how much you love me. Then there are days, like yesterday, when I want to do something like clean the house or workout, that I feel smothered by your need for me. Perhaps I need to re-read what I just wrote to you about faith and remind myself that you are truly a blessing to us. Because you are, the most precious of all blessings.
My sweet Elise, I promise to enjoy and cherish this time, when you want to be near me constantly. Soon enough, you’ll be running the other direction to explore this big, beautiful world. And when that day comes, just like today, I promise that nothing will ever be more important than just being near you. I love you, Mommy
No comments:
Post a Comment